Since coming home from India for the third time, April 8, 2013, I would say that my experience has been one of constant processing. Now, because of the Awakening I really know that this is
a concentrated effort of looking within and "being with" whatever is there. No blame for others of course.

I have gotten a lot of help with this. "One" is the idea from Michael Singer's book, The Untethered Soul, where he says, whatever feeling is happening, move completely away from the thought causing the experience. In other words do not engage with the thought at all and just let the feeling run its course.  Doing this is a constant meditation but sometimes the bliss that comes forth is just tremendous so I know I am making progress in my vast negative lifetime perceptions that need clearing.

Another helpful technique is to ask myself "Do I want to play with this?" for any situation or feeling.  Astoundingly enough, I found that when I ask this question, my Self within me absolutely knows the answer "Yes" of "No" immediately! This question has saved me countless hours of angst. Again this help was given by a "chance" encounter from a lovely women passing through town on her way to her new life in the UK.

One other is for all the difficult relationships affecting me at any time in my world, past or present, is to see in a meditation that I am sending back their energy as Neutral energy. This gives them back their originally created Self energy  previously centered on me. In giving them back their energy it automatically results in taking back my Self energy previously focused on them. This automatically deeply re energizes my own Self.  This is so positive, it feels loving and good to whomever it is going to and I feel peaceful and filled up with my lovely reclaimed original vibration.  Interestingly enough this is not a "Forgiveness" exercise at all, with none of the stories, but just a giving and receiving of the original loving vibration of Self for us both.

I believe my lovely Divine has especially set up this time for reflection for me.  I broke my fourth toe a few days before coming back from India and have just yesterday been able to get my foot into a shoe so that I could go back to the gym.  So, I have had four months of much less running around and have had to use my time in being with myself without distractions. It's all good. Just letting the inner truth role.

Will continue with this and see where this leads within and update as new techniques or insights come forth.  Wishing you the best of Now with every breath.  Namaste Catherine